im bacckk.

mannn its been like agess since ive bloggedd. today i did my bio exam and it wasss soo harddd ><" mostly the multiple choice questions though. but ohwellsss, doesnt matterrrr cos today's the last day of semester one!! yay!!! finallyyy, ive been hoping for this day to comeee. i hate woodworkkk! ohh but next semester i have five exams D: hums, chem, bio, maths and english D: damnsss! whyyyyy D: ahrghjagjhagehajgdjhadasd soo gayyy!
and these days are soo colddd mann! wats with melbournee ! first we had bush fires, then we got the swine flu, now thiss! ARGHH.

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OMGARD!! todayyy is sooo boringggg! all i did was go to church and thats it! arghgdhagsdhagsdhasd ~! welll at least i had maccas today so its alright :D nothing to say todayyy ...OH WAIT OMGARD i gotta do sooo muchhh hw man --' lets seee.... i got like bio testt this weekkk, maths test as welll D: foodtech and hpe ! OMGGG so stressfull~! and i havent started anythinggg D: okayyy thats it, im gonna do it now and be a good girl :D

E.L.V

ahhh saturday. like usual i would go to piano lessons. but its soo gayy now D: jason, or my piano teacher, would like hurry me soo muchhh when playing piano. its piano for gods sake!! feels like im having a work out or something man. like every single time he tells me to play a song, he would clap along so fastt making me play faster. mannnnn, ASKDJAKSDJAKSD i like my old piano teacher bettter D: he wass soo easyyy askjdhakjdhjakhsdasd. well anyways.. after piano i got ready to go to work. and COS its saturday i would usually have to work with trung. but i didnt. i worked with bernie instead, but she was alright. maybe even crazy at times XD the day went kinda slow at first, then more ppl started coming and pretty soon i found myself kinda rushing the chores and stuff D: we were like soo behind. i was at the back cleaning the bench and stuff when out of nowhere (and i mean literally nowheree) i saw van just standing there at the register. i was kinda shocked because one minute no one was there, the next POOF. so yeh. i didnt know wat he was doing there soi came up to him. it was really random but i saw him carrying a bouquet of roses. okay.. mayb not random...well trung would say it as "romantic". but anywayss yeh..he gave me the roses and i was just like OMG LOL hahaha. i felt kinda guilty cos he already bought me suchhhh expensive roses on sacred heart day and now this. but he told me he wanted to so yeh. then trung came in and bothered us. he's sooo gayy i swear. trying to me fired or something ??! when i went outside with trung to take the rubbish out, i saw denise, nam and david? is that his name :S well yeh they were at charcoal chicken and denise came up to me and hugged me :S helllooo womannnn i smell like subway D:

yeh well thats pretty much wat happened to me, im gonna watch sailor moon now :D buwhahaha

holy cow

man, its been like ages since i last blogged.

its sacred heart dayyy and man was it boringggggggggg. we went to like a mass thingo and seriously it was soo boring that i spaced out and all i could hear when the priest was talking was "blahblahblahblahbalh" litterally man. then there was the fair which was even gayerr. my class sold like cheese burgers and it went pretty well :D heheheh, i think we even bet the yr 11s who were selling them (suckers) i didnt really do anything at the fair cos they didnt give us enough timeee D: usuallly its like one hour but this didnt even feel like one hourrr! its rigged man!! when the bell rang we had to go to homeroom. i was sitting on the table spacing out as usual (cos we didnt have chairs, had to carry our chairs to recwest-----' soooo gayyy) well yehh.. out of nowhere i saw denzy and judy walking past my class pointing to me then i saw van. so i stood up and van came inside my class. so lucky that there wasnt many ppl in my class then buttt twoo teachers --' van gave me the roses and he was like "three in one" hahha, funny. yeh then he left. mann... when i found out that van got the roses for 25 bucks i was like omgg but i didnt say anything. and so many ppl told me that van started panicking when he couldnt find any roses so he had to buy it from other ppl. i felt soooo guilty inside. he went throughh all that trouble for me, goshh. im so touched. i still reckon it wasnt worth buying three roses for 25 bucks. but cos he did for me so yeh. all i could give in return for him was a hug and a kiss. i feel that me and van are getting closer and closer each day. and okay, thanks so many of my friends who like to "help us out". but thanks guys for caring about us. so many ppl say that once me and van are together we're gonna last forever. idunno about that but it is possible so ill just have to wait and see.

hilarious xD

lol, just came back from work, nawww too bad jen came a bit too early, didnt get to see her D: today was soooo dead man.... hardly anyone came in so me and trung were like soo boredd. like always trung would messs up my hair --' man i found out that he was weak for a guy :D buwhahahaha! i versed him in arm wrestling and took him ages to beat me (suck!!) XD well yehh.. nothing really happened today.

ohyeh! since i couldnt write this yesterday ill do it now. afterskol , me, jen van and trung went hp right as watchu called a "double date". but yehh..all trungs idea! or is it ?:S anywayss..we watched a movie called angels and demons and OMG i have to say it was the mostt BORING -EST movie everrrr madee. I TOLD YOU TRUNG TO WATCH 17 AGAIN but nooooooooooo. or at least hannah montana orr the jonas brothers or something D: well yeh. and yes i did lie on vans shoulder LOL i literallyy fell asleep cos the movie wassss soo boringgg. and trung was soo annoyingg, kept on LOLing at the moviee --' ADKJASKDJASD yeh and after the movie we just went to eat then went home :D

im me again!

ahhh... nice to be me again. now im even more hypo than before xD and omggard, every single time at skol lisa alwaysss alwaysss shocks me by coming out of nowhereee then AKDJKASJDAKSD. mannn and every single time that happens i get shocked--' (even though it happened for like a million times alreadyyyy!) gotta get her back muwhahahahahah!
nothing really happened today at skol oh except at lunch today how out of nowhere lisa and shamus brought up flrting with ppl? then the group was like to lisa "i dare you to flirt with one of the guys" but she was like "nooooooooooooooooo" so was shamus. sooooooo we told olivia to do it to minh xD we only told her to blow a kiss but instead she said "i like you" LOLLLL omgarddd it was sooo hilariousss. i nearly died from laughing XD im sorry olivia but yeh XD couldnt help it (:
so yeh thats pretty much the highlight of todayy. BUT OH NO gotta say that todayy there were room changes AGAIN and it pissed me off soo muchyyy!! we took so long just to find our rooms man ><"" far stupid year 7s!!! and 9s!!! AKEDHAKDHASDADARGHHDHASDAGAGAGAGAGAA!!!!~!@

happy birthday oliviaaa!!!

BWUAHAHAHAHA! its olivias birthday todayyy and she's turning old :D there's not much to say today except that olivias 16 now >:D

OH MY GODDD! thats rightt ! igotta forensics test tomrw PLUS a bio sac D: whteckkk!! and wat time is it now??? it slike 10:12~~~ and i still havent finished studying! OMGARD

okay okay. to save time i would just like to sayy that im in a happy mood todayyy (: and today i have a love list which areeee

1. olivia, cos its her bday !!
2. jennn, cos she made me laugh soo much today about me being taken by her and making van jealous cos she stole me off him then she got long as well :D buwhahaha thats just too bad van
3. jennnyyy, cos she's hilarioussss
4. helen, cos she made mee laughhhhh AHAHAHHA
5. judyyyy, coss shesss evilll :) jokzingg
6. haaaaa! cos she helped me with bio yo
7. timmmy, cosss shess a funnyy onee

sorry, vans not an option because he's a gaymumfojumbo :D

buwhahahha you smell jenny xD

OKAY! my depressing days are now finally overr!
OMG today was sucha crazymessed up dayy mann! in homeroom, my teacher told us that there was going to be a room change for some of our subjects right...welll...i WAS listening to her but i thought she was talking about tomrww so i was just like eh......yehyeh watever and continued spacing out. SO when i had maths todayy and went to my class i was like WTF >:S there were like yr 7s in my classs!. so i was like ZOMGG. so me, ha and olivia searched for our rooms untilll finallllyyyyy we got there --' PLUSS worse thing was we had a test as well~! like OMGG. then after that i had a bio prac that was a test as well D: and DOUBLEE omggg heart dissection. IT SMELT SO BAD I WANTED TO PUKE. the pigs heart was like massiveee. it was sooo disgustingg and when ha poked through the holes i saw like all this blood running out and i was just like BLERHHDFASDASD. well yeh. ohh i was soo relieved when i went to work today i asked jim if everything was alright on sat. this was wat made me worry most of the time cosss last sat jim came in and he said we were missing money and he assumed that i did something wrong.. so yeh. i asked him and he was like " Yeh we lost 100 bucks! but it wasnt youre fault. it was some other guy who worked on the same day i did but morning shift. i was just like omggardddd. phewww. sighhhhh, made me worry for like most of the week jim! thanks a lottt. but its okay now.
oh god i should be getting to sleep now --'
TTYYLL PPLS

okay okay.

Oh just wanted to say happy mothers day for yesterday as well !

and yehh... okay, i read jennys blog and now i feel bad but as you know it is a blog and im just writing how i feel.
today was even more depressing for some reason. but this time its probably because i have my rags. anywhos, the more depressing i feel, the more i realise wat good friends i have. olivia and ha would ask me wat was wrong, but even though i didnt explain the situation they would still be there for me and cheer me up. then theres jen who would give me hugs with or without depression she would still give me hugs. even though helen and judy have no idea wats going on, they would still act retarded but in a funny way, which is wat they'll always do xD i havent seen jenny much today, but wat she did woke me up the most. to me, jenny is like a role model. no matter how many hardships she endures she'll always stand back up and smile. then there are also others like vy, debra, timmy, tina, trang and lisa who likes joking about which makes my day fun.
thanks you guys. without yous my life would have no meaning.

sighh.

Today i found out that my piano teacher, chris has dropped out of working for some reason. he didnt tell me why but he said ill be having a new teacher with better experience than him. just like he said, the new teacher, jason, taught me today. well he was alright and all. but i feel different. probably cos chris had taught me for like 4 years and out of nowhere he disappeared which made a part of me felt kinda empty.

well after that i went to work at subway. it was kinda empty at subway so most of the time i talked to trung. its funny though, cos me and trung just met each other this year and i feel that he's the closest guy friend i have. actually, he's the closest guy friend ive ever had. cos im more usually closer to my girlfriends than guys. oh god. when the night had finished my boss came to close down the shop but he told us that we were missing money or something coming from the eftpos. i dont know wat happened after that cos i went home. but im so worried. its probably my fault, seeing that im new and i probably dont know how to work certain things properly. turng says that if something happens he'll cover up for me but i dont want him to cos its most likely my fault. sometimes i just feel so useless. i often wonder why people like van would ever like me. its just weird cos i feel that im not worthy enough to be liked. im sucha retard. wats there of me to be liked? sometimes i even wonder wat the world would be like if i didnt exist at all...

oh god.

well..i dont know why i keep on typing out the things that already happened to me on the next day but yeh idontknow. probalby because i get shocked too much then i forget i had to write things.

okayy..back to the point. well.. yesterday as i said that van thing right, then blah blah blah. well afterschool as always, i would hang around the front of the skol for a bit with the guys. everyone went home so jen and van walked me back to my house. it was hilarious cos jen kept trying to slack back behind to let me walk with van by ourselves but it wouldnt work XD bwuahahah. when we finally got to my house...well not even, just the front of my neighbours, but like the neighbours house had like this fence thingo with bunches of leaves hanging of it so i wouldnt think that anyone at my house would see anything. well, we just stood there talking about random stuff and van kept on pointing out to every cat that he saw that it was my dog --' it is soo not!! just cos my dog is a chihuahua doesnt mean that its a cat!! fool!! anywayss...we were about to leave when jen was like (and she spoke soo loud) "VAN GIVE HER A GOODBYE KISS" i was just like omgardd. well yeh, he gave me a kiss, ON THE CHEEK OKAY, don think wrongg ppls. then they left. when i started walking towards my front yard i saw my dad standing there smoking D:
i was just like thinking to myself omgomgomgomgomgard. and today right my dad was like to me " oh yesterday i saw you with some friends ellen. whats the boys name??" and i was like "errrr.... van..." so he was like " oh okay". then he was like " i saw that girl (refering to jen) teasing you about that boy" then he was like laughing at me. then he was like telling me to think about skol and homework and stuff and omgg. HE is soo on too me right noww ><"
to tell you the truth, i didnt really wanted to go out. to me, its kinda early to go out atm, even if other ppl dont think so. i just dont want to let my parents down, especially if i start failing skol because of this. i know ive chosen the right guy for me because van is a guy that relates soo muchh with me. he is everything i would ever want apart from him being younger than me but its okay i guess. even if he is a wuss with asking me out and stuff, im kinda fine with it. cos at least he's not forceful about it.

LOL this is just omgardd

Yesterday at school i was hanging out with my friends timmy, olivia, jenny and tina. we were just talking about random things as always, like who that year 9 kid was and what he looked like. but ANYWAYS. to the point. the girls went to the library and i was supposed to go to but jen and trung told me to come back with them. it was at the place with benches under a tree and stuff. WELL. they told me to sit down next to van who was next to trung who was next to jen. i thought all this was about something else so i was just like ehhh...all the other guys were watching us and i kept on hearing trung telling van to say it! say it!!! i was just like wtff...is he on about. this kept going on and on. until like when the bell rang van finally turned to me while the other guys pretend not to hear or see anything) and he said "can we make it official?" (and he's talking about our relationship if you guys didnt know xD) and then i was like "errr...yes?" AND yeh. all the guys started hugging van like crazy retarded monkeys but yeh. cant believe me and van are FINALLY together after i rejected him on valentines. plus i cant believe me and van has liked each other ever since last year and now were together xD