sighh.

Today i found out that my piano teacher, chris has dropped out of working for some reason. he didnt tell me why but he said ill be having a new teacher with better experience than him. just like he said, the new teacher, jason, taught me today. well he was alright and all. but i feel different. probably cos chris had taught me for like 4 years and out of nowhere he disappeared which made a part of me felt kinda empty.

well after that i went to work at subway. it was kinda empty at subway so most of the time i talked to trung. its funny though, cos me and trung just met each other this year and i feel that he's the closest guy friend i have. actually, he's the closest guy friend ive ever had. cos im more usually closer to my girlfriends than guys. oh god. when the night had finished my boss came to close down the shop but he told us that we were missing money or something coming from the eftpos. i dont know wat happened after that cos i went home. but im so worried. its probably my fault, seeing that im new and i probably dont know how to work certain things properly. turng says that if something happens he'll cover up for me but i dont want him to cos its most likely my fault. sometimes i just feel so useless. i often wonder why people like van would ever like me. its just weird cos i feel that im not worthy enough to be liked. im sucha retard. wats there of me to be liked? sometimes i even wonder wat the world would be like if i didnt exist at all...